Why did I gain weight you ask?

The simple answer is because I eat too much and don't move enough. 

But the complicated answer is so complicated I don't know how to explain or where to start. The 1st time I lost weight I thought I was ready, actually I was and I was convinced it was going to be a onetime thing, I even thought - why do people keep losing and gaining weight? Can't they just keep it off! Before you get offended I was always a big girl and was never really interested in losing weight, but I thought when I'm ready it will be once and for all. Ha ha! Yeah you can all laugh at me, I'm laughing too don't worry :)

So back to the reasons. 

Lets go back to 2011. In 2011 for the 1st time in my life I fell in love with someone, and then we broke up. I was so hurt and hear broken I didn't eat for days I lost 10lbs I weighed 220lbs. I maintained that for about 3 months (nov2011-feb 2012) and after that , I don't know what happened. I know at least 20 of 30 lbs I've put on in a year is emotional eating related and the other 10 is just plain over indulging.

To be honest I thought I was too smart to suffer from emotional eating- as in I would know when it starts and put a stop to it, but shock! Horror! I did know when I was doing it, but I just didn't care. In fact, I would consciously plan to over eat because *insert several silly excuses*  . The most popularly reoccurring excuse was " I don't care, I wanna be so fat that no one will find me attractive that way I don't have to worry about liking anyone. Sad! 

I'll end this post here for now. 

Almost Three years later

It's Almost three years since I last updated this blog. Guess what?
And yeah you guessed right! I have gained all the weight back.
Last time I weighed my self I was a whooping 250lbs *facepalm*

I'm not back on the wagon yet, but though I'd start blogging again.
So many new things , I don't know where to start.
Lets do some tonight

• I moved to the Greater Vancouver Area
• I'm back in School
• I started a not for profit organization 
• My life is the busiest it's ever been.

I'll be back with full details soon I promise! 

This semester ends on April 18th and I promise you my log my full attention from then on. 

Till then... Xoxo 💋

I suck

at blogging

Im not sure if its laziness or what, but before i log on here i think about what to say and how to say it, then when i log on somehow i lose it, i dunno where it goes.

So this is me just checking in
Ive started working out with my personal trainer, i hate it, but i need to, he makes me do evil things, but thy're good for me.
I almost passed out the 1st day he made me run up and down a hill and by the 5th time i just couldnt anymore so we went and did something else.
Ive been eating fairly good, some days are good, some are...

I dont have much to say today
Just thought i'd check in.

#okbye

Its been a while folks..

I have Good and bad news..
Bad news first. I fell of the weight loss wagon, boo :(
BUT Good news is that I havent gained any weight as at yesterday I weighed in at 222.0lbs.So i stayed the same ..YAY!!!

How that happened , i dunno. I manage to go to the gym at least twice a week.. still and some days im on track , and some days have been horrible eating wise, stupid choices, skipping meals cause i felt i made a bad choice in my previous meal..and the list goes on..

So I thought before this gets out of hand, i signed up with a personal trainer, that i will be seeing 3 X a week. its going to cost me alot of $$ but its all my fault and im just gonna have to pay for my "sins". I start on the 23rd of August for 12 weeks.. yikes!!

So i'll be coming here on the days I meet with my trainer to update y'all on how it goes.

I thought losing weight will be way easier this summer but ,boyyyy was i wrong?? Ive felt lazier than ever. and then there's been so many parties and some you just have to go there drunk or leave drunk..lol.( silly excuses,i know).

But oh well, back on the wagon full throttle on the 23rd of August..

Wish me luck.

Totally unrelated:

I Just decided that I want to be an Avon Rep, im excited about it, and might even get some AP's from it when i go drop off catalogues..ill walk instead of driving.LOL
So i'm meeting up with the avon chic tomorrow and well, we'll se what happens from there.

Please

can you guys tell this scale to stop messing with me!!!
So i weighed in Last night as soon as i got to work and it said 222.0lbs
So today as soon as i got to work i weighed myself again and it said 213.0lbs
i was in shock i was like nahhh!! how does one lose 9lbs in one day, fine i exercised today but im pretty sure i dint burn that much calories. as if thats not enough, i wait for 5minutes and get on again and it says 210.4lbs and i did that 3 more times and it gave me 210lbs on average.

I mean if its for real im not complaining! but i dont want to be all happy and then get to my WI on tuesday n find out i got punked! oh well maybe i'll just starve till tues so i stay the same ( just kidding)

yeah i was supposed to go to my weigh in on friday but dint make it, got the car back, still needs some work . sigh!. but i will be at my WI for sure on teusday, and i will let you guys know if i did infact get punked!

Im out!!!

I'm back!

I am finally on top of things now! So im back to blogging.

A few things have happened since I last blogged. in no particular order

• I got a new schedule at work that I absolutely HATE! they have me working every Friday and Saturday ( overnight) now!
  
• I started the 30 day shred video by Jillian Michaels (Ive skipped 4 days due to TOM)
• I started learning how to drive
• I bought a "new to me" car on Monday
• On Friday I had to take it in to the auto shop
  
• On Saturday I learnt i need to pay between 1200-1400 to get it fixed..ouch! Which was what lead to my previous post.( i hate unplanned expenses)
  
• On Sunday morning I decided i wont let the car thing get me down and everything will work out.
• On Monday morning spoke to the mechanic and I get my car back on Friday.
• I'm skipping my weigh in today, but ill go on Friday after I pick up the car.
• Ive lost 1 inch from my waist since i started the 30 day shred
• I have a boat cruise that i'm going for in June, I'm really excited about it!
• I feel bad that I wont be able to go for my really good friends son's 1st birthday but i really cant afford it now.
• I've still been eating well, though some days could have been better !

Here are some of the good ones..
Mozarella stuffed burgers: I used extra-lean ground beef and part skim mozza , and it was on a whole wheat sourdough bread.

an omlet with spinach,mushrooms, yellow peppers and egg whites!

baked fries with roasted broccoli and mushrooms with salmon
Veggies about to be roasted for my veggie lasagna, that i forgot to take a picture of!

ESBM (eat shrink and be merry) Smackeroni and cheese.
Huge batch of Rice with black beans,corn niblets, red peppers and Italian turkey sausage
putting them into single serving sizes/portions


Ok i think that's everything for now..

and oh its my dads birthday today! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!

Here is the picture of my fro-hawk! not really good angles but thats the best i could do!

Before
After

I am

MAD
SAD
a lil DEPRESSED
and TIPSY!

and I braided my hair into a frohawk! Picture coming soon!


That is all!